Thursday, January 2, 2014


Hello there, long time no... see? Is see the word? Read? Whatever this is. I haven't made a post on this blog in quite a few months. To be honest, I simply lost interest in it. I lacked a motivation for posting, and my notebook full of ideas seemed pointless every time I would pick it up. I decided to try youtube for a while, and took my inspiration to that platform as I had found a community I loved there. I still have some interest in it, but at the moment I feel a bit disconnected from it. As a natural introvert, I find the most joy and comfort out of mediums like still photography and writing.

So, alas, here I am. This is a new year, and with it, comes new ideas and new passions. 2013 for me was an interesting one. There were many times where I felt stuck and lost - at least creatively. I had my ups and my downs personally and professionally, as many people do. This new year for me is a giant question mark. I will be graduating from college in five months time, which is both exhilarating and terrifying. I have so much work to do before then, and thinking about the work ahead of me after I receive my diploma gives me a mild heart attack. Not knowing what I plan to do with my life after I leave this place is probably the most stressful thing I've ever had to contemplate.

But on the other hand, it's the most exciting. It's easy to forget sometimes how lucky I am. Yes, this year will be a lot of work. Yes, it will be upsetting and stressful and confusing. But I have choices. I will have a degree in my hand before I even turn 22. I know with the state of the world as it is, with the unpromising state of our economy, and with the statistics of students getting jobs being as low as it is - especially in a major like mine - that I do not have an easy, or even promised, road ahead of me. But I do have a road ahead of me. I have choices and I have knowledge and I have support to follow the path that I choose to follow, or to create.

I'm not saying any of this to gloat or to brag about my life and the hand I've been dealt. I'm saying it to remind myself. And to remind any of you who might be in a similar crossroad in your life - whatever it may be. That no matter how rocky the future may appear in the distance, it can be far better than anything we have left behind. We have the power to make our own choices in this life. We have the power to choose happiness. So this year, I'm choosing happiness. I hope you do too.